For me, the Holigral retreat itself was a committed journey to resolve the underlying issues I felt were somehow holding me back from being all I could be, from being awake in the dream. It served me fully in this respect. I uncovered, understood and off-loaded these, revealing aspects of me that had been lost in my past traumas. I felt deeply still after, silent and very peaceful. I couldn’t actually talk about the retreat much for weeks, or its effects, as if no words could describe either my journey or the result. This is still largely the case except what I say here.